Five years of making June epic!

Will I ever not think another missed birthday isn't a big thing? Last year Olivia would've started school, this year she would've turned 5... FIVE!!! How can it not be a big thing? I often wonder if I will be making the calendars when I'm 80 years old and how long until I stop leaving flowers on her bench the 19th of every month. I'd like to think I'm never going to stop and that if we ever move then I'll find a new spot for flowers and go on a pilgrimage to her actual bench once a year.

Anyway, here we are, another year and another calendar that hopefully helps us all be happier people and make a better (much needed world!). The last year has been intense, the global pandemic hasn't ended, we've seen a lot of bad things happen and a few good ones too. Personally, I haven't seen my mom in 566 days (and counting), I went back to work and did something I loved for a while, I'm trying my best not to lose my mind with the seemingly never ending lockdowns and restrictions and, most of all, I'm making daily efforts to be proud of myself. The older Eloise and Apolline get the guiltier I feel sometimes about growing further away from Olivia as life takes over. She's never far and I still have moments and days where grief takes over and at times I can't believe she existed, because I truly can't grasp she's not here.

This year I asked a few amazing women to come up with ideas, 13 of them came back with some epic activities and I love to see how we all seem to be feeling the same way. As always, the 15th to 22nd are staying true-ish to what we did back in 2016 but I feel that somehow my friends were in the same wavelength as me this year with the things they picked. There are some tough ones as well, so please never feel pressure to take part in all (or any of it). My intention with this celebration is to make you (and the universe) feel amazing for the 30 days that June lasts.

This year I'm actually going to track (and honour) my daily feelings. I'm going to write down one word or sentence that describes how I feel when I wake up and then before I go to bed. I'm confident that the good will outweigh the bad, that I will be more grateful for my life and that when the bad days come I will be more loving towards myself.

I hope this helps you have an epic June and that you enjoy Olivia's 5th birthday party. Aquí vamos pichona, naricitas forever!